forlorn-kumquat replied to your post “If you’re still hungry check out pre-Amelia Sam and Aboulia- Anhedonia!Anon~”

SAMMY BABY!!!

raeofthelight replied to your post “If you’re still hungry check out pre-Amelia Sam and Aboulia- Anhedonia!Anon~”

I simultaneously love and hate this. Here are my tears I hope they give you joy.

Mmm, delicious, thank you =)

nivena replied to your post “If you’re still hungry check out pre-Amelia Sam and Aboulia- Anhedonia!Anon~”

I hate how it says i ‘like’ this because OH MY GOD I DO NOT LIKE THIS IT IS MAKING ME CRY I DO NOT LIKE THIS FEELING I MUST SHOW MY FRIENDS.

agelade replied to your post “If you’re still hungry check out pre-Amelia Sam and Aboulia- Anhedonia!Anon~”

WHY WOULD YOU

If you're still hungry check out pre-Amelia Sam and Aboulia- Anhedonia!Anon~
Anonymous Asked

"Sam, you need to keep chewing, okay?"

Kelsey sighs as the man in front of her stares at her blankly, blinking slowly. Several long moments later, his jaw moves up and down, and he swallows.

Kelsey smiles encouragingly. “You’re doing great. How about some more?”

It takes another long moment, but Sam shakes his head. “I’m… I’m not hungry. Sorry.”

She hadn’t expected any different. “That’s fine, Sam. We’ll try again at dinner.”

Sam nods slowly and resumes staring out the window.

Kelsey bites down on a sigh and takes the tray back to the kitchen.

"Sam Winchester?" Matthew asks, coming up beside her.

"Sam Winchester," Kelsey agrees.

"Bad day?"

"The fact that he got out of bed on his own is a significant victory."

Matthew winces. “Very bad day, then.”

Kelsey sighs, her mouth curving down sadly. “Yeah. On the whole, he’s getting better, but it just breaks my heart, you know?”

Matthew looks over at the tall, thin man who sits limply on a couch in the rec area, staring out of the window with a blank expression. On a good day, he smiles softly, makes brief conversation, and even helps other patients. On a bad day, moving itself is a chore, let alone eating.

"So what’s his story?"

"Crashed his car after his brother died, doctors at Met Gen set him up with an MRI and found lesions, eventually got diagnosed with aboulia and depression and got sent over here. Dr. Fraiser thinks he may have been admitted in a mental hospital before since he picked up the routine here pretty quickly, but he hasn’t brought it up."

"Rough hand all around, hunh?"

Kelsey nods. “It’s just… I saw him finish a New York Times crossword in the time it took me to make coffee and bring it out to him once. And when he feels up to it, he kicks ass at Scrabble. But most days…”

Matthew looks back at Sam, with his flat, empty eyes and no sign of the keen intelligence within. He wonders who Sam is, what he must be like in full health, instead of the lifeless man barely able to move without someone telling him to sit down and stand up and walk.

Sam just blinks and stares out the window.

catboysam replied to your post “relevanttosomeone replied to your post “relevanttosomeone reblogged…”

stop Avani 2014

pinkrangerv replied to your post “relevanttosomeone replied to your post “relevanttosomeone reblogged…”

…The hell is in your ‘How to terrorise Samgirls’ folder?

Things like this:

And, as a bonus:

quakerhobbit:

queen-of-carven-stone

TEASE. WELL, TWO CAN PLAY AT THAT GAME:

Sam hadn’t known where he was heading when he told Dean he was going for a walk. Or at least, he hadn’t consciously known.

But here he was, in a park, staring at a cluster of bushes that, thirteen-and-a-half years ago, had a clear space inside them just big enough for two eight-year-olds.

The girl with the cookies and the Lost Boy.

He’d thought he knew what it was like to feel lost, but the longing for a home he’d never known, the out-of-place-ness he’d felt in the hunting life, that was nothing compared to this. Nothing compared to the gaping emptiness in his chest, the coldness of an unshared bed, ash and fire damage and the smell of smoke where there used to be a home that often smelled of baking.

Sam couldn’t breathe, couldn’t think, and he was diving forward, into the bushes, clawing his way through to the clearing that might be just as gone as the girl who made it her fort, ignoring the twigs that scratch his face and catch at his hair and clothes.

And now he’s here, in the place where they met, and the grief has him, and it pulls him apart and scatters him far and wide.

Sam’s head collapses against his knees, he presses his clenched fists into the grass, and the sobs shake his entire body. His thoughts skitter downwards in spirals, because whenever things were bad it was always Jess he turned to, Jess who held him and carried him through, and he needs her now more than he ever has, but her absence, her death, is the very reason he needs her, and so she cannot come, but he needs her, but she’s gone and will never hold him again.

He thinks the sobs might physically shake him apart. He thinks he doesn’t care.

This, this is what it means to be lost, and it’s so much further from nice than anything Sam had ever imagined.

relevanttosomeone replied to your post “relevanttosomeone reblogged your post and added:WHAT HAVE YOU…”

*glares* you are getting far too much enjoyment out of causing us pain.

Sweetheart, I have an entire tag labeled ‘feed me your tears’

I have a picture of my readers’ tears

I have a reaction gif folder labeled ‘feed me your tears’

Believe me, you have no idea.

relevanttosomeone reblogged your post and added:

WHAT HAVE YOU DONE
WHY WOULD YOU POST SOMETHING LIKE THAT;WHYYYY;

quakerhobbit:

quakerhobbit:

I’ve gotten a lot of new followers in the last couple of weeks, and I just thought that some of you might be interested in the fact that I occasionally make fanvids.

This one is Sam/Amelia one, and the song is “Heart Beats” by Hey Marseilles.

Reblogging myself because queen-of-carven-stone and I were discussing our mutual appreciation of Sam/Amelia.

forlorn-kumquat replied to your post “Anhedonia!Anon~ Ahh! You got to my thing! Alright! Now- S7 Sam and Familial Fatal Insomnia”

THIS ISN’T ANY BETTER THAN THE OTHER ONE!!!

forlorn-kumquat replied to your post “Anhedonia!Anon. Sorry for spamming, this’ll be the last one for a bit I think. Delirium Tremens and Demon blood. Also- We’re going to kill your followers aren’t we?”

I AM NOT OKAY RIGHT NOW!!!

Did you hit the micropsia one yet?

nivena replied to your post “Anhedonia!Anon~ Ahh! You got to my thing! Alright! Now- S7 Sam and Familial Fatal Insomnia”

I’M SCREAMING IN PAIN OWWWWWW IT BURNS NO WAIT THOSE ARE TEARS OWWWW I HAVEN’T EXPERIENCED TEARS IN LIKE TWO YEARS I FORGOT HOW MUCH THIS HURTS OOOOWWW

pinkrangerv replied to your post “Oh my CHUCK! I can feel my head swelling and expanding and…. a post just came up on my dash and I’m so FUCKING PISSED! I have to share, I’m sorry if I’m annoying you but CHUCKDAMNIT! The subject is Who Wore it Better and it’s a series of pics of Sam possessed by Meg, then Lucifer, then Gadreel, then Gary when he body swaps with Sam and the fact that a JOKE is being made about his repeated rape and stole body autonomy is I just I can’t I I’m gonna have to put pants on a go buy booze a lot of it”

'On behalf of the moon, go fuck yourself' is the best line ever.WHEN ARE YOU GETTING ONLINE I'M WATCHING SUPERMEGAFORCE AND *META SO MUCH META*

Isn’t it the best?

And, uh, consistent online presence isn’t likely to happen until I finish my applications, but you can shoot me messages in any form (e-mail, asks/fanmail, FB message) at any time.

September 20 2014, 09:43 PM   •   2 notes
Oh my CHUCK! I can feel my head swelling and expanding and.... a post just came up on my dash and I'm so FUCKING PISSED! I have to share, I'm sorry if I'm annoying you but CHUCKDAMNIT! The subject is Who Wore it Better and it's a series of pics of Sam possessed by Meg, then Lucifer, then Gadreel, then Gary when he body swaps with Sam and the fact that a JOKE is being made about his repeated rape and stole body autonomy is I just I can't I I'm gonna have to put pants on a go buy booze a lot of it

Here are some calming reaction images:

And, just as a bonus:

quakerhobbit replied to your post “Meet the Blogger”

You’re going to law school?!? I thought you were going into something science-y? I mean, that’s awesome either way, I’m just curious!

I’m in something science-y now, namely biochemistry, but Harvard kicked my ass (check my ‘epilepsy adventures’ tag for more info, and really soured labwork and practical chemistry for me, so I was thinking of putting the knowledge I’ve gained to good use in intellectual property law.

catboysam replied to your photo “I was tagged by queenofquestionableintentions! Name url blog title…”

when i saw Michaelangelo i thought the question was “favorite ninja turtle” not gonna lie

I wrote that and my next thought was in fact to list the rest of the Turtles.

Meet the Blogger

I was tagged by lokitapendragon!

Rules: Just insert your answers to the questions below. 

URL: queen-of-carven-stone

Name: Avani

Nickname: Avi

Birthday: Usually slightly after the summer solstice

Gender: Female 

Sexuality: Asexual

Height: 5’ 9”

Time Zone: EST

Current time and date:  7:39 PM, 20/09/2014

Average hours of sleep: Between 6 and 15.

The last thing I Googled was: BBC Intruders

My most used phrase(s): Feed me your tears, yes good, I AM COMPROMISED, Mother pay attention to me

First word that comes to mind: Tarmac

Last thing said to a family member: “Bye Mommy, have fun!”

One place that makes me happy and why: England, and the reasons why could fill an entire book. History, climate, culture… CASTLES.

How many blankets I sleep under: One during the summer, two or three during the winter.

Favorite beverage(s): Water, black and spiced teas, mango juice

The last movie I watched in the cinema: TMNT

Three things I can’t live without: My laptop, my iPhone, Internet

Something I plan on learning: How to not get my ass kicked by the Analytical Reasoning section of the LSAT.

A piece of advice for all my followers: Judge not, lest ye be judged. Seriously, guys, don’t be jerks to each other because of prejudice.